When I was at bay view. More towards the beginning, I wanted to die. It was as simple as that. I felt like my old friends were forgetting me since I wasn’t with them, and that I was unable to make new friends.I didn’t click with anyone at all, they had already established themselves and there was no way I was going to join any of the friend groups. On top of that I was tormented by girls who thought it was funny to throw ice cubes at the girl sitting all alone with dark eyeliner. I felt like I was trapped and being suffocated. Even now, it’s hard for me to be alone with my own thoughts, because I tend to torture myself by thinking too much. When I was at bay view, that’s how it was every single second. Walking through the halls completely alone.Watching girls with their best friends made me miss mine. There wasn’t a single person in that school I could talk to. I cried and cut myself in the bathroom on a daily basis. The teachers hated me, my grades dropped because I was so depressed and unmotivated. I felt like I had noting to live for and that there was no point.  I needed some sort of light at the end of the tunnel, and even though I knew I was only going to be there for a year, that was too long. So I planned on ending my life as a way to look forward to something. An ending. At one point though, I became my own best friend, I didn’t know it at the time, but it was something positive that I gained from going to that school. I learned how to depend on myself and handle being alone.I also focused on music a lot more than I had before. It all changed day when someone was sitting in the seat at the lunch table that  I usually sat at, I had to find somewhere else to sit, which led me to Alana. That’s a whole other story though. That girl changed my life in so many ways. She saved me. It was one of the worst points in my life, but at the same time If i hadn’t gone there I don’t know who I would be right now.